In some ways I feel ready and in many and more ways I’m not. I’m ready socially but just thinking about how everytime I look into her eyes she will be just a little bit different then the day before and I’m scared I’m going to miss some pretty big things. It will be my first day back after being gone for 20 weeks and I’m just afraid of being weepy all day. I’m weepy now just knowing there will be time where my schedule will not coincide with her bedtime and it brakes my heart.