I’ve posted on here before about my crippling anxiety and PTSD. About if I should start a job or wait until my anxiety gets better. Well I didn’t end up going to that last job. I couldn’t force myself to go. I would have been such an amazing opportunity and I really disappointed myself.

If you didn’t see the post I said that my anxiety is so bad that I had the fear that when I start that job that someone will follow me to my car and take me. I also had a job offer to work st a dentist and went I went to the interview I had to have someone take me and watch me from outside because I thought they would sedate me and sell me for human trafficking. Also, I can’t stand taking showers because the water on my skin makes me want to rip my eyes out I can’t stand the feeling. Those were just a few examples.

Well I’ve gotten my 6th job offer and I’m supposed to start work in about 1 1/2 hours and I’m starting to freak out. My anxiety is kicking in and I’m getting fears to go. But it’s such a good job. Close by, hours are perfect, I’ll get 2 raises in the first 6 months.

Could someone if you ladies just send some encouraging words.

Also I am being treated for my mental illness, I see my pcp, psychiatrist, and therapist.