12 dpo and scared

Lauren • Nz Mamma of 2 girls Earthside and 4 👼. Due July 7 2020 with hopefully baby #3

Got a faint positive on pregmate today after my miscarriage in July it was my third consecutive miscarriage and now im pregnant again and I’m too scared to breathe a word of it to anyone in case I lose this one to! I feel like they shouldn’t have to lose another baby to. It’s a surreal feeling to be pregnant and not excited about it :(