So I've had a high sex drive for as long as I can remember. I masturbate atleast once a day, and usually my SO and I make love once a night. However, when he doesn't want to make love at night, I have a hard time going to sleep and feeling the physical throbby feelings of arousal. 😕 I usually have to masturbate in order to relax and go to sleep. (I mean I'm not like losing my mind or anything, im just laying in the dark, trying to sleep, unable to think about anything else lol) He doesn't mind me touching myself, and has gifted me toys and usually tries to touch/hold me while I do it. 🎀

But I can't help but feel kind of bad? I know he probably feels a little inferior and sometimes makes lighthearted jokes about it. And it's also kind of awkward because he knows I'm going to ask (I mean it's not like I want to but we share a bed and it's not like I want to go touch myself in the bathroom floor lmao just seems like a little courtesy, y'know?) And so sometimes we're just cuddling, trying to go to sleep, and like 30 minutes will go by and I'll be like "hey do you think-" and hes like "yeah baby". 😩♥️ And then I can sleep like immediately afterwards. And to be clear, I don't ask or expect him to participate or help in any way if he's already indicated/seems uninterested for the night. We cuddle either way and I'm happy to be close and affectionate in other ways... It just builds as a physical feeling and I end up wanting to masturbate to get the feeling to go away and relax to sleep. I just wish I didn't want it quite as much. We've been together for a few years, so I also wonder if it wouldn't be a little exciting if we could go more days in between and build sexual tension (on both sides! Lol). I have the higher sex drive so it's hard to turn him down and try to build the sexual tension when he is ready to go. Anyone know of anything? Seems impossible to find anything on Google about it.