I dont feel normal :,(

I dont ovulate and i have not had a real period in 9 months.... before that it was a year or two since the last time i had a genuine period which was cause my ovulation, not the fake periods caused my birth control. I have PCOS and i am obese and i do not feel normal and it really gets me down. I have dark hair everywhere, i have hair on my chin and i do not ovulate...... im absolutely terrified of not being able to have children in the future because that kills me to the core. I just dont feel like a woman.... i dont feel feminine... i just feel like a waste 😥😥. I have asked the doctor to request a scan for me, to look at my reproductive organs to see if anything is up, but he said “there is no point because you are on ttc”.... seriously? Ugh it sucks so bad :(