So I have really bad anxiety, I've come to terms with that. My parents both say they know exactly what I'm going through but it doesnt feel like they do. There are certain worries that stay in my mind for weeks. 1 worry in particular that I've had recently has been going on since mid July. How I'm still functioning is beyond me. My worries can usually be split into two categories, legal and health. These are the two main concerns that rule my life. For example, I used to watch anime online on websites. Now I cant in fear that I will get into trouble. Its stuff like that I'm dealing with here. Stuff that usually I wouldn't give a second thought to until someone says something or I see something that makes me start to think.

Another example of is when I learned a month ago that there is a registered pedophile living across the road from me. That night i was reading some.....sexual manga when I stopped and thought for a minute about what my mum had told me about the pedophile and I began to worry that I could get into trouble for reading sexual manga about high schoolers (they were boy x boy and I felt comfortable reading them before because they were close to my age. I am 17) but now i cant because of the impending fear that I get riddled with and now I'm scared that the police will come and arrest me for reading "underage manga". This is the kind of stuff I deal with.

But when It comes to my anxiety i cant rationalise it. I cant say to myself "its manga, it's not about real people or even based off real people you will be fine." Because my brain wont listen to that.

I'm done with this......I need help. I cant carry on like this, getting scared over every little thing that I do.