I just can’t do this anymore...

Shb

2 years of trying. Initial tests done and waiting for my gynaecologist appointment. Been told it could be 30 weeks before I see someone. I’m having acupuncture and changed my diet. My breasts have hurt so much for the past few days I was convinced this was finally it. Then at work another one of my colleagues announces their pregnant. I wasn’t upset because I was convinced I was too. Took an early test (I think I’m due AF on Wednesday) and it couldn’t be anymore negative. I’m so upset. I can’t stop crying. When will it be my turn? My husband doesn’t understand and keeps saying it will happen but I can’t believe him. I can’t do the diet, acupuncture, stress and business-like sex anymore. I’m lost!