This might be a long story but I’ll try to make it short

When I was 14 I met a 17 year old guy on some random calling app(not very smart I know)

I really liked him and we talked for a month on the app before we knew each other’s ages. He thought I was older, I looked older and acted older than I was, plus he had only seen my profile picture. We kept talking as friends. I loved it, he was amazing. When I turned 15, he turned 18 less than a month later. We had been talking to each other for a while. I had feelings for a guy I never met, which was something I didn’t think was possible. Once I was 17 and he was about to turn 20(age of consent where we both live) I told him how I felt. He said he felt the same

My mom never found out. We weren’t really dating, but I liked him a lot. I loved him, we talked everyday. We knew everything about each other A few months later it was still going great. He told me a girl invited him to a party at college but he wanted to stay home and talk to me. Stuff like this kept happening. It was then I realized he was missing out on so much because of me, and I wouldn’t be able to see him for at least 2 years. Probably more.

I loved him so much. But, I told him this wasn’t going to work, and I told him why. After a lot of crying we both agreed it was for the best.

It was hard. I talked to him about once a year, usually on one of our birthdays and I still do. Now I’m 21 and he’s 24.I still believe I was in love with him, and I still care about him. We’ve both been in serious relationships that didn’t work out and we are both single now.

Now I’m going to a town right by his. We live about 11 hours apart. I’ll be there for about a week.

Should I call him and see if he wants to meet up somewhere public?

He NEVER said anything sexual to me. I was younger than him and I’m sure he knew it would be wrong.

Am I crazy for thinking this? What would you do?