So I recently started back at work, well it’s been 10 shifts so far and I feel... almost “normal”. I lost my son at 39wks4days due to his placenta stopped working. Well my bf was really concerned about my mental health and said that I was super depressed. I didn’t entirely agree until I went back to work and noticed how much better I felt about myself. I can fully talk about Ollie without breaking down. I can explain what happened to him without my voice cracking, and although I am still angry that it was not looked at as much as I was told from the beginning (having a small placenta) I no longer feel the need to blame myself for losing him. I just wanted to share this with everyone that even though it HURTS so badly, you will find some peace. It’s been 3 months since we lost him but I can officially say, I’m happier than I’ve been the past 3 months.