I’ve been married to my husband for a little over a year. We had been together on and off for about 7 yrs prior. Prior to getting married we had some issues regarding him being faithful. I had caught him out there a few times lying and one time for sure cheating

He finally decided to move out of state for a work opportunity and we were done. It was a pretty terrible departure, he didn’t even say goodbye. We spent About a year apart and then he text me outta nowhere saying how he was sorry. This became a thing for him every few months. We had a ton of mutual friends who would tell me things they heard during that time. Anyway he eventually tried to rekindle things

And we eventually got back together. But we were long distance, so about a year into it we eloped

Andddd now I’m here. In a little town with him. Kinda struggling Bc the work opportunities as well as my support systems are not here. It’s just me n him. We are both pretty isolated here regarding friends however he has been hanging out with a co worker , a male, like his bromance. I’ve been a little annoyed Bc I don’t have no one out here and he tends to hang w him even when I’m available to hang with. But here is where it all pops off. You know us women get a vibe, we’ve been kinda on n off beefing Bc of things I need his help with out here in this small town. And I wake up feeling like I should check his phone. I have his password. But I go to work. He is off and goes to hang with his new bff... aka the guy I don’t really like

They hang out all day on Labor Day on a boat. My husband sends me a heart late afternoon. Then starts texting me when I’m leaving work to see where I am and tell me he’s home waiting for me Bc he misses me. I get home, him n the friend r in the yard chilling. Obviously drunk. I’m like whatever. Friend leaves. Husband eats n falls asleep on the sofa so obviously I realize it’s time to check his phone

As I’m looking I see a message btwn our mutual friend , a guy from our original town, and him. He’s telling him that he was super drunk on the boat and they had like 4 girls on the boat and he fingered one of them.

I’m reading this standing over him while he sleeps wanting to punch him in his head

Long story short, he is swearing on all his dead loved ones he lied to hype up our friend to wanna come here for a visit Bc this friend is always trying to get laid. I told him I want a divorce. I moved across the country , left all I had, with my child who just started hs here where I’m pretty much isolated and alone for this shit. He is adamant it was all a bs story. I told him if your admitting to being a liar, how do u expect me believe your not a liar. I fought so hard to make us work. Thinking about having to leave is hard. Thinking about staying is hard. I’m too old for this. I know he’s lying , to me..... who lies to that extent about hanging w girls. And how can you disrespect me like that even if it was a lie and make someone believe you’d do that to your wife.

I just needed to vent. I can’t tell my friends or family. I feel so trapped and devastated. And crazy. Worst part is how they deny things like your crazy. 🤯💔🖤