Today I got my period. 😭

Today, I got my period. And I cried. Then had a glass of wine in a nice hot shower and got in bed and cried some more. Because it wasn’t supposed to be this hard. Every month, I secretly get my hopes up even when I tell myself I won’t stress about it. And every month it’s disappointment. My husband came home from work and asked why I was in bed at 7 pm and I cried again telling him I felt ridiculous. It’s honestly an emotion I was completely unprepared for. For the longest time, we didn’t think we wanted kids, and now that I want one so bad it hurts, we aren’t having any luck. So today, I will cry and feel sorry for myself and tomorrow maybe I’ll secretly let that hope creep back in for next month....