idk if this is a stupid question or not, but i think my first bf might have coerced me? or maybe just disrespected me generally idk

like, he was my first bf and we were both 16. i wasn’t his first gf (or first anything really). we’d known each other since freshman year. when we first started going on dates end of sophomore year, it went kinda fast? like he grabbed my butt the first date (in his defense, we made lists of places we were okay with contact but i didnt know he was going to do it then?)

and the before the second date he wanted me to give him head, and i was like “idk” and then “sure” but i didn’t

eventually tho i did give him a hand job but i was kinda okay w it then and later the same with the other thing

but later on tho, i wasn’t comfortable with how often he wanted sexual stuff from me- in pictures, videos, video calls, in person, etc- so whenever he asked i’d say like “idk” or “maybe” or “later” and he’d ask multiple times in a video call or in person and i would give answers like that and he’d get upset when i’d say later and later came and i didn’t want to do i just kinda started saying yes after so many times that he asked.

i was at his house once and i just started crying (not on purpose) bc i felt like a toy to him and i told him that and he felt bad but then we did what he wanted that night anyway even though he said we could take a break and (in his defense) he did ask me if i was okay with it and i told him yeah

i’m not asking this for legal reasons, but for personal ones ?