No feelings after chemical

I recently had a chemical pregnancy. I got really excited when I saw those two pink lines. But then a few days later the lines were getting lighter instead of darker and eventually I started bleeding. It sucked, I was bummed out.... but that was that.

I see so many women talking about the rainbow baby after a chemical or talking about how they will never stop thinking about that baby that almost was, and I’d never try and take that from anyone as everyone deals with things differently.

But a few weeks later, I’ve moved on and I’m trying again. When I get pregnant again, I won’t consider this baby a rainbow. I don’t consider myself to have had an actual loss.

I guess maybe it’s because it’s something that never really was?

Am I completely cold hearted for essentially not being bothered by this chemical pregnancy?