Supposed to be a blessing ....

I have 3 children currently and after finding out we were pregnant I was shocked because I wasn’t supposed to be able to have anymore. I was initially over the moon, then the hyperemisis kicked in and the constipation. After what felt like forever today I passed a baseball sized stool while in tears and I’m not feeling the blessing part so much right now. Having three kids I know this horrible pet passes but right now I feel worse then I’ve ever felt in my life. 😔 I know I should be so thankful but the pain makes it so hard.