I need serious NON judgemental help.

I’m in a very serious relationship with a great man got a whole one year and for some reason still crave the attention of my ex’s like I wanna 17 again (I’m 27). When guys from my past flirt with me or ask how I’m doing when I run into them on social media or in person, it’s like a high. I dated a lot in High school and I’ve always started talking to me ex’s again randomly like checking in on them or just when my current relationship wasn’t meeting my needs.

I don’t ever wanna ruin what I have now but I don’t understand why apart of me just wants to chat with them for fun. I know I’d be playing with fire and burn my whole world down. 😔 I low key feel like failure.