Silently freaking out!

So my husband is out of town for the week and tomorrow I get to call my doctor to let her know my cycle started so we can start clomid for the first time.

I know I should be super excited, and I really am excited about this next step, but i am so nervous and just super anxious. Did anyone else go through this? Probably a dumb question. I just feel strange trying to talk to my friends about it, every time I have tried they just look so uncomfortable and then I feel horrible for bringing it up and trying to vent.

This whole process is so stressful I feel like, I dont think people realise how difficult this is for a women to do or process.. hoping it's not just me feeling crazy? 😔