I may just be sulking now or venting or I dunno but this is the only place I have to do so. I really don’t have anyone to talk to about my frustrations with my husband and being first time parents.

I don’t wanna talk to my friends because I don’t like inviting people in based on one side of the story and then them having opinions and what not. I can’t talk to my mom because 9/10 times she takes his side.

It’s very difficult because I don’t wanna make him out to be a bad husband or dad because he’s not it’s just like any marriage when a baby comes there’s struggle. It’s things like he’s okay with letting her cry and I’m not. Instead of just holding her he sits her on his lap while she screams and looks annoyed, he never wants to just cuddle her unless I hand her to him.

And with no one to talk to and it all in my head my mind spirals to places like...does he like being a dad? Are we okay?

I know her loves us both and sometimes I wonder if it’s because his Dad wasn’t involved and affectionate

I dunno