I suffer from depression and really bad anxiety and work is my biggest struggle. I know everyone doesn’t like work, but I have such a fear of it. Every night before I go I’m crying. It’s nothing to do with the actual job itself, it’s just in my head.

Recently I havent gotten much work and have been at home and now I’m going back to work soon and it honestly makes me feel like I wish I was dead instead.

Like that’s how much it stresses me out. Before anyone worries or anything I’m not going to do anything, but I just want to know if anyone else feels the same way?

Nobody seems to be able to understand my fear, they just say everyone hates work but it’s so much more than that

Also yes I have gone to therapy for it a lot over the years and am on medication. But I don’t think anything will ever get rid of the fear