Okay so, I’m not really sure where to start! Ummmm....i guess from the beginning! Me and my boyfriend met when we were both 15, in our freshman year of High School(2016-2017). We started talking the 9th of September, started dating the 10th of September, broke up the 12th of September! He cheated on me with one of my best friends! I forgave him about a month later and we started dating again, we continued to date off and on throughout our freshman year. He went to Juvie twice, for stuff that he did before we had met. He started getting a lot better but every time we would break up it was because he would say that he “couldn’t settle down” or I’d find out he’s cheating, it was like he wanted me to find out so I would break up with him! But me being me I forgave him over and over again! He grew up learning from his dad that you should never have to be with just one person. He grew up learning to never show your emotions to people especially your significant other because it shows weakness and that’s the worst thing you can do in life, is show weakness! So whenever he would finally start to commit and everything started going great, he’d end it or cheat so that it would “make me hate him”, make me wanna “stay away” from him! He would do it in purpose bcz he wanted me to hate him so that I didn’t come back bcz he was scared....he was scared to commit, he was scared he was gonna be a horrible boyfriend bcz of the way he was raised! But I fell in love with him and I know he loved me, he was just too scared to admit it! He took my virginity in February of our freshman year, I thought I was pregnant, I was having all the symptoms, and I took a test and I thought I saw a line, I went to the doctor and it was negative, he said that I could have just thought I’d seen it since I was so stressed out! Me and A (that’s what we are gonna call him) list contact, he dropped out of school and started going to Job Corp to get his GED and to try and get his certification to try and get his plumbing license. We were off and on in our 10th grade(2017-2018), then towards the beginning of December we stopped dating and I said I was done I couldn’t keep getting my heart broken bcz he didn’t know what he wanted! He didn’t know if he wanted to finally commit and settle down with me or if he wanted to believe what he was raised learning! So I started dating this guy on January 20th, 2018 and we were dating for about 8 months, so we broke up in September of my junior year, but we just weren’t working bcz there was a lot wrong with him and me, we just didn’t work together as a couple, so I ended it! Well A came back into my life around November of my junior year, we talked for a week before I got a call from this girl telling me I needed to stay away from her “baby daddy”. I was extremely confused so I called him asking about it! He admitted that before we started talking again that he was with this girl and now she’s saying that she’s pregnant with his kid, he wanted to do the “right thing” and get together with her so that he was there for their child, so we ended it and he blocked me on EVERYTHING! It’s September of my senior year and so it’s been about 10 months since I last heard from him! They were off and on the entire time, I know this bcz me and his mom talk! If she had it her way he would be married to me already! She hates what his father taught him while he was growing up, and she wishes she would have caught onto it way sooner, she claims herself for how he turned out! And she can see that with me he is a WAY better person! He doesn’t get in trouble bcz he knows I don’t like it when he gets into trouble (legally), he (for the most part) treats me like I’m supposed to be treated! Like whenever it’s the time leading up to whenever we start getting serious is when everything is great! But the minute things start getting serious he gets scared and runs! So anyways he called me about 5 weeks ago, saying that he really wants to be with me he regrets hurting me that he finally realizes that I’m all he needs and that G (his ex gf who said she was pregnant) is crazy and he can finally see that all he needs in his life is my love! Things that made me just fall head over heels for him all over again, the only problem was everything he put me through over the years made me have really bad trust issues! And G actually was pregnant! She wasn’t at first when they first got together, she lied to make him get back with her!🙄but she’s about 16 weeks now and she tried to come in between us again! But this time it wasn’t working! I could honestly see a change in him this time! He was WAY more mature and he just acted so differently! He treated me differently, way more like a gf should be treated! Everything was going great, but then G started threatening him, saying she’d take the baby away from him if I was anywhere near him or the baby when it was born! At first he didn’t take no thought to it! But things just kept getting worse and worse! To top it all off we had sex and I might be pregnant t....I’ve been having a lot of the symptoms and I’m 15 days late on my period! I’m too scared to take a test! But last night he got scared again😔and used the same old excuse of he can’t settle down, he can’t commit to one person! So now I’m alone and I got kicked out of my moms house about 2 weeks ago, I’m living with a friend and her mom right now....idek why I typed all this up....I guess to rant and see if anyone had any advise for me....if you actually have read all the way down to this point then I congratulate you, bcz I know it’s gonna be a lot of reading....but anyways any advise would be very greatly appreciated! Thank you!