1st, I have a hard time trusting people which is something I am trying to work on.

2nd, I have some insecurities also trying to work on.

I went through my husband's phone when we first were together and saw naked pictures of himself and a few of other girls. He convinced me they were from before we were together. I didn't fully believe that but let it go because he told me he wouldn't do anything to hurt me yadda yadda.

Fast forward 2 years we recently got married. He left his tablet home and yes I went in it. He has naked pictures of other girls on it even one with his name on it thanking him for a donation. So he paid some tramp for nudes! He has videos from other girls too. I didn't (and don't care to) look at those.

I'm so hurt by him and pissed that I ignored any signs. He has a password on his phone now, he changed his Facebook and never posted our marriage, he turns his phone away from me or wont get on it when I'm near him, he will get possessive and upset if I grab his phone, etc.

I feel like such an idiot for trusting this man. I should have let him go when he wanted to break up about 4 months ago instead of begging him to stay and work on the relationship. I loved and still love him so much. He claims he's not cheating, idk what he calls what he's doing then. I'm such a fool. 😡🤬😭😭💔💔