I have been in a rut for quite some time and here lately, it has been driving me crazy. My husband works a lot, so I spend so much time alone. I don't have friends anymore, so I end up just sitting around at home binge watching the same shows over and over.

I posted on here the other day asking if anyone goes to the movies alone. There's all these things that my husband and I always do together and could never bring myself to go do alone. Going to the movies, going out to eat, going to the park and walking the trails (just to name a few). So I thought about going to the movies last night, but there wasn't anything playing that I wanted to see. Today after I got ready, I took off to go to the park before work. I walked the trails for an hour, BY MYSELF! Then I got hungry and realized I hadn't eaten anything all day, so I head to subway. The whole way there I'm debating back and forth whether I'm just going to get drive through and eat in my car, or go inside. I went inside and ate, BY MYSELF! I mean, it's subway, so a lot of people eat alone there, but I have never gone out to eat alone. I always just get drive through or carry out if no one is with me. Then I still had some time before work and went to target to pick out some workout shorts because I'm going to try and head to the park every morning now. I want to make this a regular thing. I am not comfortable with my legs in the least bit, but I got some shorts to wear tomorrow morning.

This probably sounds stupid to so many people, but this is all such a big deal to me.