Cutting off sex.

I need some advice ladies.

I’ve decided to stop being the one that always initiates sex. My husband is never the one to start it. I understand he’s a submissive personality when it comes to sex, but I’d like to be to occasionally. I want to feel wanted. I want sex that makes me feel like he can’t get enough of me. I want that moment where he’s like “I have to have you right here, right now”. I want to feel sexy. Right now it’s pretty much just me always getting off with my toys because the sex is just so lack luster for me. He never lets me change up or spice it up. The craziest position he’s willing to do with me is doggy. I am not a fan of doggy, I can’t get off that way. I’m fine having to get off on me riding him, but it should be fun until then too.

Maybe it’s because I’m too fat. I am 297 pounds, but I’m working on that. He tells me my weight doesn’t bother him at all and that he finds me sexy and beautiful, but he doesn’t make me feel that way, you know? He can tell me it all he wants, but it’s nothing without proving it.

I’m just scared that once I stop making the moves to have sex, that sex will become non existent. I’ve told him all of this as well. He doesn’t listen to me about it.