UPDATE AT BOTTOM!

so i’ve been with my boyfriend for a year and 2 months, but i’ve known him for 5 years. it was great for the first 4 months after getting together, but then he started to change. i’m pretty sure that he’s cheating, but i can’t say anything because i haven’t found real evidence, only texts. he’s told girls “i’d date you but don’t tell my gf,” then he would tell me he only did that not to “hurt her feelings,” and that he’s a “man of truth,” which means he would date her. there’s another girl who tells him that she loves him, and apparently she “forces” him to say it back. so far, i haven’t seen any evidence of her forcing him. at all. i even lost my best fucking friend over it. she told us she still liked him, and he told me he admitted to liking her too, but there was “nothing” going on between them. i’m starting to call bullshit because over the summer, he was alone with her at her house for an hour while i was out of state. normally, he tends to run when i jokingly take his phone, but i held it for him when he played basketball one day. i go and see this on his snapchat to my best friend.

he doesn’t even write me paragraphs anymore. no goodnight or good morning texts either. and notice he says “i’ve liked you for almost two years” but he’s only known her for 2 and a half years. he told me when he was at her house with her, they were talking about mine and his relationship but they wouldn’t really say what. it makes me think he goes to her for her to write down another reason for him to break up with me. oh, and another thing, i live in a strict household so there’s cameras everywhere, i’m not able to leave my house without being recorded or an alarm going off. anyways, i was outside with my boyfriend one day at like 4pm, and his mom specifically waited til i was there to go, “hey (name), who was tapping on your window at 5 in the fucking morning?” she knows i didn’t do it. he said he didn’t know, but i’m convinced he does. he doesn’t live in a strict household like i do and his window just so happens to not have a screen. on another note, he’s gotten slightly controlling. he won’t let me hang out with any guy friends outside of school, if i hug another guy, it HAS to be a side hug or else “someone has feelings,” he’ll take my phone and go through my shit when i’m not looking or not nearby (which is fine. i have nothing to hide), and i’m not allowed to wear any clothes outside of the school dress code, whether i’m in school or not, because i’m apparently trying to “show off.” he’ll even throw a fit when i ask for ONE DAY to myself bc i always spend time with him.

everyone, please tell me what i need to hear. i don’t care how brutally honest you are, someone just tell me what you think i need to know/hear. please be honest with me.

Update: i broke up with him last night, and it fucking sucked. i’ve had feelings for him for almost 5 years and all of that was wasted. he was extremely upset and some of the first thoughts were “why did you ruin that whole year” and when i said i’m sorry he said “no forget it. you were the one that wanted to just be friends.” he ended up apologizing for that about ten minutes later. we agreed to still be friends since we have plenty of classes together and we’re neighbors, and his mom is the babysitter of my baby sister. he told me that he doesn’t plan to change his passwords anytime soon so i can always look if i want. everyone that found out we ended actually started crying bc they thought we were perfect and we were our schools “power couple.” thank you all for the comments you’ve said, and i’m going to take some time for myself and i’m going to spend time with my new best friend who i’ve under appreciated for about 2 years. thanks again!