Does anyone else get depressed about their Birthday? I just am having a really tough time. Always have with it.

Most of my childhood it was forgotten by my parents although very loving they admittedly didn't celebrate my birthday.

As a teen my parties turned into ones friends didn't show up to. Really stupid I know.

As an adult they usually involved me working my ass off so I just didn't make a big deal because no one ever had.

Two years ago my dad became extremely ill around this time of year and then passed away. I was his primary caretaker and put my life on hold to help him through his last phase of his life.

This year we have a home a brand new 4 month old and tomorrow is my 32nd birthday and I just want to cry all day.

We have roofers and insurance over then my mother in law (who just got into an argument this week) is watching our son so we can have a first date since baby has arrived. Then my husband plays hockey on the night.

I just feel I wanted to feel special and loved and it is an afterthought and I just keep thinking about losing my dad and why should I expect a happy birthday. No one has ever treated it like it meant anything.