Does anyone ever feel like...

...it would almost be easier to cope with giving up than trying again and being completely devastated and disappointed? That’s how I’m feeling right now after my second chemical (almost exactly a year after the first). We had taken a month off after our second IUI had to be canceled because i was frustrated and we decided we were going to start IVF... lo and behold, the month we weren’t trying, I got a BFP... then found out my betas were dropping... and now I have to wait to bleed. So far every gut feeling I’ve had has been right. I just feel like at least if I stop trying and maybe have an IUD put back in I’d be in control again. I’m terrified of conceiving naturally again because I’m certain something’s not right. I have a gut feeling IVF won’t work for us either (and like i said, my gut feelings have been absolutely spot on)... I feel like it’s the quality of my eggs or his sperm or something’s just chromosomally not right. The thing is I’m already 32 and my husband is 39... if I stop now, that’s it. I just don’t know what to do anymore.