Why am I Crying over him??

I have a guy that I used to see on a regular for dick 🍆 appointments. We are friends I guess, but I know that I dont like him enough to want more than just the appt.

Our appt that just passed, he fell asleep 😴 while eating🍴 me out. I moved him and he tried to play it off but getting me to ride him. Then he moved me to ride his face. Tell me why he started snoring. 😴I just got up. I wiped his face off and he asked me where I was going. I said "just go to sleep" and he literally turned over and did while i was getting dressed. So....why did I cry😭 over him?? While i was grabbing my stuff, i started crying so hard that he woke up and tried to stop me from leaving. I swear I was so embarrassed... so I left anyway. By the time, i got to bed 🛌 i swear my eyes were already red and puffy...