Well I am back...Miscarriage

After 9 weeks of being on my best behavior... (my doctor told me to eat as if I were already diabetic no soda, no sugar including chocolate) I had ice cream for the first time last night. Early in the morning light I started my miscarriage as the bleeding and clotting got worse I called my provider and they told me I needed to go to the ER because of the loss of blood. That was the last place I wanted to be but off we went. They confirmed everything I knew to be true by test and ultrasound and after 4 hours sent me on my way. There is really no upside to losing a child but all I wanted was sweets which my wife acquired for me. This is our third loss, my first personally carrying. The emotions go back and forth but I will try again. Thank you for reading my rant and best of luck to all of you on your journey.