So today was my Birthday.

For my birthday today he scheduled roofers and insurance agent to come to our home bright and early this morning.

I asked his mom to watch the baby in the afternoon because we haven't had a date since baby was born 4 months ago and we could grab lunch.

He then played hockey tonight.

Night before just asked for an extra hour of sleep and even had bottles prepped for him in the fridge and if I could take a hot shower in peace.

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What actually happened is he woke me up after I had been up with sick baby all night and handed me burnt eggs. Then handed me a card and told me he had to go outside.

I took a shower with baby in the bathroom. Realized baby is now passed just being fussy from shots but has a fever. Cancel lunch plans. Baby has blowout diapers and is throwing up on me all day crying.

I call and order sushi and him to pick it up.

He then leaves for hockey...

He comes home and asked me to make him a sandwich.

He puts himself to bed as I am still rocking crying sick baby.

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His point is I always don't say what i mean I shouldn't have let him schedule roofers for today. I should have said I didn't want him to spend 3.5 hours at hockey today.

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My point is I am tired of having to plan and arrange everything. I am tired of his poor planning and even asking me if it is ok so I have to be the bad guy. I am tired of the carelessness on his part. I asked for sleep a shower by myself and lunch date. It wasn't a huge deal. I didn't get those. I explained best part of my day was the baby and he gets mad because he felt he deserved more credit. I felt it was just another day where I did everything for everyone else.

It would just be nice sometime if I could get away. I had to cancel a hair appointment 2 times now to fit his schedule. Haven't had my hair cut or dyed in 6 months. I didn't even reschedule it the last time because I was so embarrassed if I would have to cancel again.

One day would have been nice to take a shower by myself.

Husband gifted me a massage for an hour at a spa. I can't even leave to the grocery store by myself or pee. Not sure when I'd be able to even use it.