I was raped by my grandpa from fourth grade to eighth grade.

since I haven’t really remembered a lot about it.

but lately I’ve been having this recurring dream of him raping me on the clement floor in this shed we had. my back was cut and I remember having my back scraped in fifth grade and thinking how did this happen and brushing it off.

I was young in the dream and crying. I don’t know if my mind just created that to torment me or if it actually happened and it was a repressed memory.

I see a therapist and have told my mom what happened already. I just am feeling really lost and sad and the idea of it happening makes me cringe and I lay awake at night thinking of the dream in vivid details and cry. Or I wake up in the morning in cold sweat thinking of it.

I just needed to say it ig.