i found out im pregnant about 4 days ago. which is a happy thing. but ive had to stop drinking, smoking (WEEEEED), stop cigarettes, stop my depression medication, stop my stomach medication, etc. and i FEEL LIKE SHIT. i dont feel like myself anymore. i hate it. i feel like im taking this pregnancy for granted but in all honesty i just dont like being fucking sober. of course i’ll get my shit together for the baby but damn its hard. im shaky and withdrawing still. im a huge bitch when im sober and unmedicated.

(dont tell me to not have a baby. im GONNA get my shit together and seek professional help but i needed to vent about it as i really do have a marijuana problem) (also dont come at me with “marijuana isn’t addictive” because ur right its not really, but im definitely addicted)