For anybody who needs HOPE

I was never expecting to ever have children of my own. We tried for about 3 or 4 years, Was told it would never ever be possible without fertility treatment, and our relationship struggled because of that 😢

I went in for a check-up and blood work one day in November 2016. Then the doctor comes back in asking me "how do you feel about children?" I responded "I want children but I can't have them without fertility help" she said "well in that case I have great news for you you're pregnant".... didn't find out I was pregnant until I was six weeks along at my first sonogram, where she also told me I was pregnant with twins.... There are still days where I look at them and I'm still amazed. Cant believe I call these two BEAUTIFUL babies mine ☺ they will always and forever be and the greatest surprise in my life 😘😘

How it happened:

I met with a fertility doctor in January of 2015 after 2 years of trying on our own. He was very rude and told me that it sounds like I have PCOS and he would not help me or go any further until I lost at least 25% of my body weight and if I wanted he could give me some information on gastric bypass because he knows it will be hard for me to lose weight on my own. I was crushed and heartbroken. A few months later in May me and my twins father had a separation after being together for 10 years, after that I want even more into depression and I stayed that way for awhile. Finally January 2016 I HAD ENOUGH, enough of feeling sorry for myself, and enough of being sad. I said to myself "I don't need a man to have children, if I want children I can go and get artificially inseminated. I just need to get rid of this weight." So I enrolled in college continue to work two jobs I started working out 6 days a week because I can't find a new man at 280 some pounds. When I found out I was pregnant in November of 2016 my weight was at 215 lbs. Me and my twins father conceived in September of 2016 I contribute my pregnancy to weight loss.

***** on a side note*****

My confidence now is horrible. I am having so much trouble getting the weight off since having my girls. SO if anybody can offer any advice on how I can get this weight off after having twins, so I can get my confidence back that would be WONDERFUL**********