I literally thought this was my month, I sort of felt it, my breasts were super sore nothing like before and I keep track of everything and suddenly started cramping bad and bleeding brown a bit, I hate feeling like this but I feel like I have let down my partner because he gets sad too when it's not our month... I want to give up honestly I'm over it. I can't be doing this to myself, and breaking my heart buying pregnancy tests just for them to be negative. I've gone to get checked and everything's fine with me, but if somethings actually wrong and it was overlooked, part of me wants to just go back to my dr and scream "I'm not okay, why can't I get pregnant". Maybe I should try other things out to help me get pregnant but I'm just lost and tired. 💔 I just want a baby, i want to have that someone to motivate me to keep going. Ever since my miscarriage in 2013 I have an empty feeling in my heart that has made it hard for me to keep going with my life, I suffer from depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. I'm the middle child and all my siblings have kids even the youngest one, I keep getting asked when I'm going to have a kid. I don't mind the question, nor I'm in such rush, but I feel like I'm running out of time. Im just angry, and hurt. I might not be the only one but I just needed to rant and cry it out. I send baby dust to those of you trying, I send prayers to those of you struggling with a loss or ttc, and I wish a healthy pregnancy to those of you expecting 🙏🏽💕