I have always been the person to jump at helping out with any party: birthday, weddings shower, baby shower. But lately I find my self getting almost irritated when I get an invitation. Or even when I see ANOTHER person I know I pregnant. I have been trying since May 2018, I got pregnant March of 2019 and I lost my baby at 7 weeks. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through in my life. And now I have to go to work every day with a girl that is due 2 DAYS after I was due. I just keep dreading the day she asks me to help plan the baby shower. (She doesn’t know about any of my fertility issues or miscarriage.) I don’t want to be selfish, but I also don’t think that I can survive going to a baby shower, let alone planning one, around the exact time I should be having one. I have a hard time even reading posts about people finding out genders and things due around the time I was while I’m so empty inside. Am I a horrible person?!