Am I just horrible? 😂

Cry

I need advice 😂 my brother in law and his wife are pretty much perfect in the eyes of his family. His daughter is perfect, and so is his wife and anything he does, he gets so much praise. My husband is almost the outcast and no matter what we do, we are just left out and not cared about as much 🙄 they have one daughter who was born in June of 2018. Now, they swore they did not want another one for at least 2 years but when I found out I was pregnant in January, my SIL all of a sudden decided she needed another baby. My pregnancy unfortunately ended in miscarriage and then she got pregnant in June and I recently found out Im pregnant again (hoping this one sticks) When she got pregnant, they told everyone in the family but made it clear they didn’t want them telling anybody “just in case the same thing happened to them that happened to me” and they just found out tonight that they are having the first boy in the family. I want to be so happy for them, but I am just so upset about the whole thing truthfully. I know that there baby is going to be so much more loved than mine and anything their child does will be so perfect. I know that my pregnancy will end up being shadowed by hers and I am not thrilled about that 😒 I obviously want my baby to be healthy, that’s most important, but I can’t help but just be upset about it all 😭😫