Sad , upset

Well from the looks of it I missed ovulation and is now out this month🥺 going on cycle 4 trying to conceive my rainbow baby . I’m finna just stop tracking and give up because if it’s meant to be it’ll happen but unfortunately it’s not happening in my favor and it’s making me stress. I just wanna go sit in the shower and cry my eyes out. Why it have to be this hard to get pregnant. I wasn’t even trying with my angel baby and it happened with ease and now since I want one it’s not happening 😔