Idk what to do help

So like lately I felt like I’ve been annoying everyone around me like I feel like everyone is talking about me behind my back and I just feel like I’ve been annoying and since I feel like people have been talking crap about me behind my back I just feel like everyone is getting even worse towards me even the people I was closest to feel distant from me I feel alone and like nobody understands me and if I try to express myself everyone is just going to say I’m dramatic including my boyfriend which is the most frustrating and I don’t know how to make anything better