Not even sure..

I'm kind of torn, I recently found out I was pregnant with my 3rd and when I went for my 9 week ultrasound they said there was no fetal pole. And I could be earlier than expected but it's still bothering me. I have 2 beautiful babies at home to love but I guess it still somewhat hurts. I go back in 10 days for another ultrasound and I'm so nervous. My heart goes out to all the women who've suffered loss. I know they feel way worse than me and I probably shouldn't be so upset cause fertility isn't an issue but I just keep thinking about the baby he/she would be. I really hope everything turns out okay.