I want out

And the only way I can think to get out it to sell myself.

I'm in a massively mentally abusive relationship. Wasnt ever this bad until I had my child. My son is 5 months and I cannot allow him to see and hear the things that go on around him.

My guy has wrecked my car, cussed my boss out and caused me to lose my job.

I am currently a SAHM and I'm stuck. I have nothing and cannot even get toothpaste or a razor when asked. He has starting calling me nasty names and comparing me to his trashy exes. I've been told to "shut the fuck up" and "stay in line". Been called overweight since my son arrived and that isnt the half of it.

I know everyone looks down on prostitutes. But I kind of dont care anymore. I have to get out and fast. That's the quickest way I can imagine.

Dont know what else to do. If my son wasnt in my life I'd have laid down in the road.

I'm lonely. So lonely. Do everything alone and get treated like trash. My guy says he works until 10pm every night cutting grass. But no tan, no sweat, no grass clippings....

Whatever. I need out. And I suppose I cant care about the judgements.

Would you not do everything you can to make sure your child was okay? This is my only realistic option.

Edit:

You ladies are amazing and every single one of these comments made me cry.

I have no family left as I didnt allow them in the birthing room.

No I dont think this will affect my son, I wouldn't allow him to see it.

I have called all the shelters in a 40 mile radius and they are full.

I have called the police and they told me there was nothing they could do seeing as he hasn't put his hands on me.

I'm lost.