Happiness seems unattainable

I’m currently dealing with depression and I feel the worst I’ve ever felt in my life. I about 3 times everyday and it’s draining, it’s so hard for me to try to read 4 chapters when I’m crying.

I wish I could afford a therapist but I don’t have a job or insurance and I feel guilty even asking to see one as I don’t want to add another burden to my family. Does anyone have any HEALTHY coping techniques I could use in the mean time?

It’s honestly mentally and physically exhausting criticizing myself everytime I look into the mirror or crying for no reason or because people are mean and have to make snarky comments about other people’s lives... anyway thank u in advance 🖤