I have gestational diabetes. :(

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I did my three hour test today and failed it. My obgyn just called to go over the results and next steps/what to expect with gestational diabetes. I can’t stop crying. I thought I was mentally prepared for that possibility but I apparently wasn’t. I don’t get it because I’m a relatively small person and thought I was doing alright diet wise. I know it’s one of those things that can be random sometimes. I’m just really frustrated. I’m waiting for the specialist to call me.