Depressed

My life just feels like a drawer full of negative pregnancy tests. And I’ve thrown so many away but decided I would start keeping them for the day I can announce that I am actually pregnant. Going into 17 months of TTC and I have finally hit a wall of maybe this isn’t my journey.... maybe I’m not supposed to be a mother.

I’ve been checked, my husband has been checked and everything is perfectly fine but for some reason it won’t happen for us. Is my plan not Gods plan? Definitely feeling down today...