I’ve been posting a lot lately about having preeclampsia and hypertension.

I just need to vent so bad.

I am so overwhelmed! I’ve had it before but by the time I found out I was being induced at 32 weeks and about to die.

This time I have a heads up and know what to look for and it’s literally killing me! Every little thing has me scared shitless.

The non stop headaches, can’t catch my breath, feeling so weak and not able to eat.

The doctors keep saying it’s just because I’m 32 weeks pregnant and at that point I’ll start feeling miserable but come on. This whole pregnancy has gone amazing with energy up until two weeks ago.

It doesn’t help that my husband is getting mad at me for being hospitalized all the time for high blood pressure ...

Like I’m just suppose to ignore it and wait long enough for it to be bad enough and being induced again.

At this point depression kicked in and I don’t want to het out of bed. I don’t want to move, I don’t want to talk to anyone and I just want to cry so badly.