Boyfriend is embarrassed of me.

We are both 19. I’m 20 weeks pregnant with his baby. Before I was pregnant we were the happiest we’ve ever been, engaged, talking about moving in with each other. Since the day I’ve found out it’s been nothing but hell. He constantly would try to push abortion on me with mental abuse. Till I was about 15 weeks. He doesn’t do it anymore but he doesn’t talk about his son, won’t go to any appointments, nothing involving the pregnancy. He stopped hanging out with me and I’ve seen him once in the past 2 months. He always has excuses for me but not for anyone else. He won’t post pictures of us because he says it’s embarrassing that we’re “teen parents” and why show off something so tragic. He has no plans to move in with me at all. He says he wants me in his life wether we’re together or not. He wants to move hours away and live on campus and thinks any way of us living together is impossible. He won’t show me affection because he’s “extremely depressed” (about the pregnancy). He says I deserve all this because he didn’t want to be a dad. I’m high risk and live alone and he won’t even come visit me. He lives with his parents.

I feel so drained. I cry everyday and I feel so bad because my baby feels these emotions too. I feel like I’m in a relationship that’s not headed anywhere. I want to be with someone who wants to advance and live together and get married. He wants to text me everyday and see me every matter of weeks.

I don’t know what to do. I’m so heart broken and I don’t want anyone else.