Bob is my ex crush, and we’re good friends now. I just don’t know what this means. I love my current boyfriend.

So I and Bob were laying on the floor in my house near the chair in the living room on our stomachs. Me on the left, him on the right. I think it was late at night and so the lights were dim or off and either Kevin or Jeff was sleeping in the chair. Bob asked me for a coloring book so I went and got and then later back down next to him. I don’t think the book (which was the smurfs) wasn’t what he was looking for and so I leaned over to the shelves under my desk that had appeared, and only them, in front/beside the chair. I knew I had a smurfs book and a Sesame Street book, so I pulled them out. But while I was reaching, he kinda judged my way and laid on my back and my bum to mane get a better look at what I was getting¿ I was a very weird but good feeling, almost like when my boyfriend cuddles up next to me while we’re watching RWBY on my bed. But Bob wasn’t crushing me or anything (because he is bigger than me, just because I’m so small). But I think I kinda liked it. So I gave him the books and he kinda slid off and was right next to me, side to side instead of slightly apart like before. But he said something about the artist of the smurfs and I confirmed that he was correct. Next thing I remember is we’re in his car, going somewhere (his house¿ obviously not back to mine since we were just there. Or maybe we were, idk) but we were talking about I don’t remember what but I said something along the lines of ‘what was that?’ And he said ‘what was what?’

‘You laying on me’

‘I don’t remember doing that’

‘well you did’

‘really?’

‘Yeah, and if I’m being honest, I kinda liked it’

And then idk what we spoke about next but I got the feeling of we got to the conclusion that he liked me now. But I’m with my boyfriend. And he said something about a plan to get me with him. Either ditching my boyfriend or hiding it from him or something terrible that I didn’t want to do. ‘I want to be with my boyfriend’ I remember thinking. But Bob was dead set getting me with him and not the guy I love.

Even if this situation did happen, maybe not like this, but if Bob does like me like I dod before. I don’t want it anymore. I haven’t for a long time. I just want to be friends and I think I’ve accomplished that and I think that we still will be friends for a while. But when it comes to love. I want my baby, my sweetheart. Forever and always. He is my love and the only one I want to love, nobody else.