Sorry it’s long but need to let it out 😭

On October 23, 2018 (ironically my sisters bday . Who I haven’t spoke to in 2 years)I went to the ER because I was extremely sick an I legit thought I was going to die. I don’t remember much of how I got to the er or what they was saying to me, I don’t remember them putting me on fluids. I remember my ex telling me they was going to do an ultrasound to see my kidneys... again I was in an out. I had absolutely no clue as to why. & then the next thing I remember was they brought me upstairs an the tech guy said “ do you know why you’re here” I said “ yea to check my kidneys” he said “ no honey you are pregnant” I was in shock but I was happy. Next thing I remember is them telling me they can’t figure out how far along I was that it had to be around 3 weeks. Didn’t even know that was possible to know ... I went home an immediately told my mom & the first thing she said was “ I’m sorry baby, you’re going to miscarry” (my mom is sick an disabled) but she was right ... they had me see an OB exactly every 2 days for 2 weeks straight only for them to tell me on November 7th 2018 that I was going to miscarry. I prayed an prayed that they was wrong but 2 days (nov 9th) later I bled and had all the cramps like it was a period. Me an the baby’s father broke up a month later. An I got in a relationship immediately after with a man I’ve known since November 2010. Fast forward to the beginning of September my mom told me I was pregnant again and I laughed at her but realized she was right because I had all the symptoms and my period wasn’t due for another 10 days 😂.. I found out from the hospital, again. that I was 4 weeks pregnant. I’m currently 7 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby & my SO is making sure I’m relaxed and not stressed out . We’re so excited but so scared. I was told I couldn’t have children due to being “over weight” ... Sometimes I still break down about my first baby . It’s traumatizing but I got faith 🤞🏼🙌🏼🙏 BABY DUST TO EVERYONE who is trying. God works in mysterious ways!

My very first ultrasound picture! Ever. If you’ve read it til the end I truly appreciate you taking time to read all of this. My emotions are everywhere🥺❤️