Falling for him again? #wehaveanewborn

I need advice from anyone that has been in my shoes. I got a divorce while pregnant, I kid you not, the day we brought our son home was the same day we got our papers from court. Watching my exhus with baby and the way he treats me as well is like the man I fell in love with. I realize know as my hormones settle down my responsibility in our divorce, I blamed him and his meaness for everything but I see I was also mean 😳, I love him... and I want to tell him I wanna try again... how the hell do I even say that... “oh hey lets try again” 😳😳 help...