Is there anyone on here taking adderall or some form of ADHD meds? I’m in my fourth year of university right now ( though I will likely have one more year left after this one) and I have started taking prescription ADHD meds in the past year or so. I first started with a non stimulant that is now paired with a stimulant (Adderall) and I just kind of hate it. I’m doing better in my classes but I keep thinking, at what cost? I feel like I can focus or think how I’m supposed to better but it’s like there is a part of my brain I can no longer access, I use to really like writing poetry and playing piano for instance, but lately I just can’t write anything remotely good and I still love to play the piano, but it’s like I’m interacting with it on a different, more shallow level. Does anyone understand that? Am I crazy? Like I can’t write any music, which I didn’t do a whole lot of before, but now it’s like I can’t do it at all. And I have zero appetite but I’m still hungry so I get hunger cramps and I just feel kind of low and shallow. Sometimes I feel like I am nothing without my meds, but I am empty with them. Has anyone had a similar experience? I guess I’m looking for some kind of validation, is that really what’s happening? I can’t get to the parts of me I use to like the most anymore? Are they gone for good did I ever really have them or am I imagining things to be more than what they were. Has anyone ever felt like this? Please share if so, I’m in need of some support right now haha.