It’s my birthday on Monday and I’m turning 23 and I have no close friends at all to get together with I’m so depressed and suicidal I don’t want to turn this age. I’ve never had friends no one likes me, I don’t like my family or want to get together with them. I cant be this person who no one wants. I started drinking for the first time on vacation this summer with my friend and a bunch of things have happened from that that I can’t tell anyone about. I’ll probably just sit alone because it doesn’t matter,