i have never attempted suicide, but i’ve had visions of them since i was 12. what i mean by that is i will visualize me hanging from a tree with a rope around my neck, or me taking a bunch of pills. i’ve always been fascinated with suicide. i always watch documentaries on them but i know i would never attempt because i am too scared and don’t want to put my family and friends through that. i am on antidepressants but they don’t seem to help. i feel as if i’m never genuinely happy, that depression is always in my head. some days it’s more severe than others, but mostly always there. i just want to be happy. 😢 i don’t think i ever will be.