I don’t want my daughter anymore.

Posting this anonymously for obvious reasons.

My daughter is 13 months old and a complete monster. I cannot take it anymore. She cries and whines non stop even when we are holding her. She nurses ALL NIGHT LONG. I’ll be lucky if I get a total of 1 hour with her not attached to me. I’m at my wits end. You would think at this age that she could entertain herself for 10 minutes but nope.

She stays with her grandma and cousins a lot and never cries for them. She is a complete angel for everyone but me and her dad. I don’t understand. I don’t miss her when she’s gone, but I know that I can’t give her up completely. I don’t even know why I’m writing this because I know what everyone’s going to say.

No I would never and have never abused her. But I don’t care anymore when she cries. I don’t have that motherly instinct to go and help her. I just want her to stop. I look forward to going to work so that I don’t have to take care of her. I’m lost.